Thursday, October 4, 2007

Tempted

Last night, before I went to the gym, I went by my best friend’s house to drop off some stuff for her aunt. She has been extremely busy at work so I haven’t seen or spoke to her in almost a month. As soon as I walked in the first thing she said/ask was did you lose more weight and that just made my day. Anyways we were chatting for a bit catching up with what is going on with each others lives and if we have spoken to anyone else, apparently all my friends are super busy. And at one point during convo I was REALLLY tempted to just come out to her right then and there. Over the past few months I have been contemplating coming out to her and last night would have been the perfect moment, but I didn’t. Sometimes I just want to be out already so I can just chill and relax when I’m around my friends. Then other times I get freaked out at the idea of someone knowing.

On a side note, I hope your feeling better K.

5 comments:

Matt in Argyle said...

urgh, when I look back at the number of times I've wanted to tell someone and even been in the perfect situation but chose to say nothing, it makes me a little upset at myself. That being said, all those emotions that crop up like 'my god, someone will know', all play a role.

I litterally made a meeting specifically to tell people, and tried not to think about it so I wouldn't chicken out. It has worked well for me so far.

J.R. said...

You'll find the right moment to tell someone... I know exactly what you mean about being afraid someone will know even when that's the exact goal you're trying to achieve... it's wild. But we'll all be OK. We have to believe that. And it's time for people to know, eh??

Nothing Golden Stays

Anonymous said...

I know the feeling buddy.

Anonymous said...

coming out is a long and difficult road thank god my job involves me being identified as gay. The fear of long time friends rejecting you or even family members can be a terrible
feeling.
DonPato
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dit said...

It is a very difficult thing to do. Often the ones we do not expect a reaction from do and the opposite from those we expect a reaction from. Ultimately, I found it the most freeing. I hardly notice the stress of disapproval anymore. Hang in there, you will come out at your own pace as it should happen.